This weekend I had taken my niece to her volleyball game, where one of my best friends is helping the team. This friend and I have been through a lot, the loss of family members, moving, living together, life stepping stones, graduation, marriages, baby's, break-ups and make ups. I have know her since kindergarten and she is an AMAZING person, and I am so lucky to have someone like her in my life. Anyways, back to my original thought, we were talking this weekend during one of the matches and we started talking about babies. She starts telling me how she had seen a baby in the stands on her way in and how she just had that maternal instinct of wanting a baby, but then had a reality check shortly after. It was nice to know that someone besides me had the exact same feelings. She was saying everything that I have been feeling lately. You have moments during the day where you want to have a baby with the person you love. I know I would love to look at our child and just see my husband in them. But right now in our lives it is not the most conducive time for a baby. It helps that the scariness of having children is getting less and less for me, with each passing day, it probably helps that I think about having children on a daily basis. If you would of have asked me a month ago about having children I was scared, being in charge of another human life is a big deal. Plus, I am not quite ready to give up the freedom that I have right now.
I think about having children more and more these days, since I am married now, I especially end up thinking about having kids since I end up being asked about children on a daily basis. It doesn't help things that we have friends that are in our circle of people we see everyday. So that doesn't help things, it just puts those thoughts in my head more times during the day.
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