My 25th Birthday is in 11 days, I will be spending the time in the car, which is kind of disappointing. It would be nice if someone would throw a party for me, just a little get together with friends. You know make my birthday special, but I am afraid that probably won't happen. My sister has decided to throw her husband a suprise birthday party, for his 40th birthday that weekend. Yeah, I know I should be happy, which I am I will get to see everyone but it's a little upsetting to me since his birthday isn't until December. I understand she wanted to make sure there was no way that he would think that she is having a party for him. But was there really no other weekend available? When I tried to talk to her about it, I asked her why she had his birthday party on my birthday weekend. I got the response of well unless you birthday changed then it's not on your birthday. "yes, but I have to spend 5 hours in the car on my birthday to come home." "well you can stay till Monday then" and this was the end of our conversation about it. I just wish she would of thought about me too a little bit. I guess I am really pretending to be happy about it, I am excited to see them, but at the same time it affects the way I would like to spend my birthday, especially with a bigger birthday of 25. I know it's not as big as 40 but I just kind of feel like my special day wasn't even taking into consideration.... :(
Birthday's are special in my family and last year was really nice, it was nothing big just enjoyable. I had family around, my older brother picked me up from my house, we all had dinner together, our favorite local pizza, got to watch my favorite disney movie (Beauty & the Beast), my favorite Chocolate Zucchini Cake, and my fiance drove an hour after working all day to spend the evening with me.
I guess I am feeling overshadowed by everyone else, like I always did for so long. People didn't know that my parents had 5 children, it's like I never existed. Which is probably why I am having such a hard time with this, I finally feel like I am not overshadowed and I guess I don't like going back to that feeling.
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